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Desperate Times

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There are times I've gotten desperate
Trying to find my value
And done stupid things
To see if I needed you

I had a relapse
Back to the days
Where I was just good for my body
And I was under a drug haze

I replicated best I could
But had no one left to love
So I walked forward blindly
And into self loathing I dove

So I took off my clothes
Played the part
Bared all my fears
In the name of art

I showed the rest of the world
What I was terrified to show you
Because in lieu of your acceptance
I'd hoped theirs would do

But, as always, I was wrong
And just so much more alone
I was back to being nothing
Because of stupid things I've done.

Now there's that hollow doubt
No matter how much I love you
That you'll see me like everyone else has
And one day I just won't do.
I need to stop writing. I'm too honest when I do.
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quietwriter's avatar
Deep but truthful