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Always You

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It's always you.




You were the reason I was happy
So happy.

    So content, Days of feeling comfortable In my skin, My life Of knowing I was good enough, If only for a while.
      And only for a while it was.



You were why I was smiling
So many smiles.

    Uncontrollable laughter, So amused, Blissful, Feelings I'd forgotten abound, Nothing mattered But us.
      And now it's like we never mattered.



You were the reason I could sleep
My only source of dreams.

    No more nightmares, Fears fought away Cradled in hopes, My only form of safety Found in your voice.
      A voice I'm afraid I'll one day forget.



Now you're why I'm confused
So lost in my own feelings.

    Back and forth, On and off, Love me now, Love me not, Wanting all my trust, Dizzy with the choices.
      How can I be sure of you if you're not sure yourself?



Now you're why I'm scared
Blatantly terrified.

    Wearing thin these paths In my heart Without ever really leaving, Just leaving me broken Empty And oh-so guarded again.
      You rebuilt my old walls and bricked us both in.



Now you're why I don't know what to do
Backwards, topsy turvy and upside down.

    No longer keeping me safe, No longer telling the truth, Coming and going when you want, Still knowing all my secrets And afraid to change While changing.
      You don't know what you want aside from me drowning in my love.
        Not even if my love is what you want.


It's always you.
I wish I knew. I'm just lost at this point. But at least I'm trying to work my way past it and figure out what it is I want.
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