JassieMaam

My favorite part about   dowries   and women taking a man's last name is that men   used to find women   so valuable that they had to pay   for the right to welcome a woman into their home to care for them and carry on their name.

One day I'll set to words what we were I'll paint the picture of an adolescence right, in the woods and mountains and making so many mistakes to learn from Days where time meant when it was warm enough to swim, nothing else depended on the sun Years where our world seemed so vast I forgot how truly large the world really is.

Sometimes I can't speak Or all I can do is scream, Almost never out of anger Just to make sure you're listening Rarely have I had People bring up things so strong Dredging up everything To tell me that I'm wrong You frustrate beyond What I thought I could ever take Running me through the wringer Until I feel I might break Yet when I get a second A moment just to me I cover my ears, close my eyes And ask myself what I see The answer rarely varies It always involves you So I take my breaths in slowly Ask my center what to do As my resolution strengthens The calm washes through Helping my clear the path Past things I would let stew At the

I can still feel your beard Running across my lips And trailing down my face To nestle into my neck In the hollow that collects your breath I can relive your arms Wrapping, engulfing, Surrounding me completely, Letting me sink into you With my eyes closed I can see perfectly The way you undress, Shoulders and back Moving, flexing In a way I could watch forever I can imagine your fingertips How slow you drag them Across and along, Learning my body And when to be gentle I could waste Every second Away from you Feeling just a little colder

"Do you care?" She said as she looked over at him, vomit still oozing its way out of her mouth. He was already wiping it away when he answered, not missing a beat with either action. "Of course not, baby, I love you. Why would I care?" For just a second the girl forgot why they were even in that tiny little bathroom and why the world was spinning and all she knew was that he meant it and she loved him for it. That and so many other things. Loved him in a way that broke her heart because it filled her so full and threatened to leave her so empty. Without thinking his face was in her hands and she kissed him straight on the mouth, both ignor

There's something in the way your arms feel around me, jaw engulfed and warm, that makes kissing you an experience There's comfort in the way I don't need to be close to feel safe or warm or loved There's something in the way your words hit my ears leaving whispers and wonders; have I been waiting for you?

I saw it happening But tried to ignore it Since all your words Were so far from abhorrent I got lost in your smile, Followed it around town, Feeling so elated Where he only brought me down I can't find the words To describe this feeling of What is either confused hormones Or maybe, possibly, love And it scares me when You say 'Don't break my heart' Because everything light Casts something just as dark

I think about you much more than I should and much more than I have about almost any other boy I write about you inside of my head so much more than I should because I'm painting a picture of who I hope you are I keep it inside because I'm so afraid; it's only been a few weeks but if I let them these whispers will become shouts.

Don’t say you love me You can’t You can’t You won’t Don’t make me trust you You can’t You can’t I might Because what do I do When you wake up one morning without me And you think “I’m so happy I’m alone” And then you realize You’ve felt that for a long time you just never knew what it was Because what do I do When you get tired of me, too? Don’t make me love you You can’t You might I might

This is the first time I’ve been looked in the eyes And had words like those Said to me So of course I still remember Your fingers on my jaw With a sort of numbness on my lips And it’s been so long Since I’ve been Held and warm That every smile fills me With a little fear